New Single + PhoenixEP

Hello Word to the Wise Fam!
So I dropped my first single from my soon-come EP named Phoenix.
My first single is named: Be Loved,
you can listen to it here:

Listen to Be Loved Here

I also created some visuals for Be Loved, you can watch them here:

Watch Be Loved Visuals on YouTube

Hope you enjoy + can’t wait to share the Entire Phoenix EP with you!

 

Amber.

i’ve been. broken open.

play this softly while you read my blog, for its full effect.

religion isn’t my thing anymore, i can only do relationship. theology isn’t my thing anymore, i can only do experience. it wasn’t a conscious decision i made, but the foundation of my religion inevitably crumbled because its foundation was faulty and i had no choice but to walk towards what my soul was craving; something authentic, raw, messy and real. when i walked away from religion and towards grace i walked away from living my life for other peoples approval. that is when i began to experience a spirituality that made me come alive in every moment. it showed me that i can only experience and express the amount of love i have first Received as i live my life interaction by interaction and at the whims of a loving God’s will.

it is a spirituality that has led me to follow my bliss in LA. many people have told me how brave i am to have left so much behind: social status, a good and consistent pay check, a 401k and the approval of society. yet i feel like i let go of nothing and gained everything. (no shade to my old boss if you’re reading this)

so many of us live life as if we’re not going to die one day. and yet that as well—death—means nothing. nothing significant.

” listen my beloved;
has not God chosen those who are
poor in the world to be rich in faith
and heirs of the kingdom
James 2:5 “

here in LA i spend all of my days around the ‘poor in the world’: children because i substitute teach 8-12 grade to pay my bills, artists because i am one (writer and dancer if you’re new here) and soon i will be getting paid to help a woman with disabilities run her errands.

working with children has taught me how to forgive. it has taught me how to be more generous towards the state of our humanity and to separate making-bad-choices from being-a-bad-person. even bad choices are rooted in pain, so while it is my choice to set boundaries where i see fit at the days end i know that no one has the capacity to attack me, but to only attack themselves.

artists have taught me how to love myself, choose myself, believe in myself and to not make excuses for not being my best. living out that dream that God has placed inside of my soul has developed my self-confidence and subsequently my sense of humility; i don’t try to prove myself much these days. the shinier the more damaged. i feel surrendered from worldly success and i feel that the greatest success i have/will ever achieve is to become filled with God and surrendered to Him.

surrender is all about control and control manifests itself in so many ways: unforgivness is control, pride is control, bitterness and anger and vengeance are all control. other things are control as well because control is all about intention.

preparing to assist this disabled woman is really exciting for me because of this book i recently read titled ‘broken open’ by elizabeth lesser. it is a book that is all about pain, extreme tragedy, sudden death and sudden life altering illnesses. it is one of the most beautiful pieces of literature i have ever read. every person in this book-of-true-stories, after experiencing tragedy always recounts that they did not become full of life until after God ripped the carpet from underneath their feet. for them, tragedy made more room for peace and gratitude in their lives. people with physical disabilities and terminal illnesses are forced to look at their mortality in the face every single day; what a gift. they also have the gift of considering pain on the regular and how to perceive it in a fashion that gives way to life–to being alive. and yet we are all at the risk of death in any given moment, not just the terminally ill. and yet that too—death—means nothing. nothing significant.

a poem from my book boombox in the sky

the last thing i want to speak on is love. for me, nature is the best reflection of God there is. God being love. the stunning sun always rises every morning and changes places with the captivating moon every evening, both blessing us with their beauty and presence. the ocean continues to sway and provide food and oxygen for us, the rain comes right when we need it, animals don’t hold grudges; all are consistent and loving no matter what idiocracy us humans commit. if God’s love for us is the greatest love there is, then today right now in this very moment i have everything i could ever dream of. moving to la has really taught me how to be at peace. i don’t want any of those job titles i just want to love myself and be loved by God. whatever manifests out of those relationships is a cherry on top.

 

xoxo

amber b

word to the wise two-point-oh

hey whats up hello!
oh my sweet baby jesus it has been so long since i have written to you, but girl we got a makeover check out the new place! you’ll notice that there is a new books tab. its there because i wrote a book…

i moved to LA exactly six months ago this month and out of that jump came boombox in the sky; my debut book of poetry and prose. it tracks the journey from self-sabotage to self-love–through poetry. its themes are innocence, self-love, God-dependence and testimony

it has been so moving to listen to people express feeling as if boombox in the sky breathed love and truth into them and that its empowered them to start again but with more grace and mercy towards themselves. readers have expressed that boombox in the sky humanized the more complicated parts of themselves and that it nudged them to try and make peace with those parts instead of avoid them with all of the bad habits.

the process of writing this book and uncovering one of its themes that is testimony inspired a mini-documentary series i conceptualized titled ‘words of a woman’. in this series a few of my friends and i come forward and share our testimony. this series is so powerful mainly because of how authentic and raw they are.

i moved to la because i wanted to pursue dance full-time. i’ve been training since i was really little and decided it was time to take the leap. this leap has lead to many changes and shifts in my approach to just about everything, especially creating. it’s been about six months since i’ve written you so to get you up to speed please do the following:

to do:
-purchase boombox in the sky at my books tab
-watch the introduction to my book here:

watch my mini-documentary series about women here:

and then tell me what you think by dropping a line in my comments section.

 

i honestly can’t wait for you to read boombox!!

 

speak soon,

xoxo amber