Relationships


  • Surrender

    Surrender

    I said I wouldn’t be naming my year this year—and I didn’t name it to be sure—but life had other plans; that on its own was such a beautiful symbol for where I was being lead. As 2021 was trickling to its end, a few thoughts came up into my subconscious and they really stood…


  • Choices + Decisiveness

    Choices + Decisiveness

    Happy New year. We made it to 2022—despite Covid, all of its mutations and all the the social and systemic reactions to it. We are here and that is miraculous.  During the ending/beginning of each new year, there is always a lot of future forecasting done by psychics and evangelical pastors alike. Tapping into their…


  • Creating a Life

    Creating a Life

    Retiring Distractions Once people retire, statistically many transition pretty quickly thereafter. Why is that? My hypothesize is, after dedicating your life to a companies mission statement—one that you may or may not be personally invested in or passionate about—you now have to find a sense of purpose, your own rhythm and create a self-directed life…


  • Recent Revelations

    Recent Revelations

    As many of you know I have been working really hard to heal out of survival mode and get out of my own way. And that I have been uncovering and discovering exactly what it means to heal the past that exists in your present, as I go—a past that is stored especially in our…


  • How to Navigate the Unknown

    How to Navigate the Unknown

    Navigating the holiday season is challenging—gathering with family members and revisiting complicated relationships, seasonal depression, processing your year and being isolated by the cold. But the holiday season post-ish-Covid-19 is all of those things plus an added layer and it’s made the holiday season this year feel a little eerie. The remnants of what we…


  • Healing from Survival Mode

    Healing from Survival Mode

    Listen to audio before you proceed: I created this audio, accompanied by a video—that I cannot seem to find—just last year, with my last significant relationship as it’s inspiration. He made me feel so undeniably small—as you may hear in this audio—and if i’m honest with myself, I enjoyed every moment of it. I wanted…


  • feel your entire life, every moment and everyday.

    feel your entire life, every moment and everyday.

    Pain aspiring to evolve out of pain—especially when you’ve experienced utter devastation more than once—is initially very appealing. This idea that we can evolve perfectly, that we can respond perfectly in any given instance, instead of being emotional or ‘imperfect’ at times. The notion that we should have this ability to smile and wave goodbye,…